Been trying to post for the few days phew but the new post option was not co-operating.
Now that it decides to be nice to me, I've got no time :(. Looks like another busy work day for me.
Can't a girl just read for a living? Won't that just be fun? (Don’t I just wish?)
Anyway, enough of my whining.
I've been having a really good time with FL these last few days. I realise He has been trying to catch my attention but I'm always too busy doing a lot of "nice" things. Only I have been neglecting what is truly important.
Fancy forgetting how to breathe? That is exactly what I have been doing, and then I wonder why I am so worn out at the end of the day.
Just some days ago I was running around frantic and in the midst of it just as I by the way thing, I whispered a prayer- God save me and I heard "Breath".
Now I don't fancy myself as a really deep person or anything like that but at that moment I knew that was exactly what I needed and only one person could have known that. - My First Love.
I heard an analogy yesterday and it clearly depicts what I often find myself doing.
Picture this, I'm taking a walk with my really cute puppy. The puppy (let's call it Snip)
So Snip is excited to be out, the path is really any dog's idea of a dream world.
As we head into the woods this warm evening, the crunching sound of leaves underfoot, the drizzle of 30 minutes ago has left the ground moist and the air nicely fragranced with the not quite dusty-woody smell. Squirrels and other furry little creatures are popping out of holes from various angles and running off who knows where. The birds seem to be having fun singing sweetly in the trees.
Of course Snip is tickled pink with all these activities happening all around.
So he decides my pace is not fast enough, he is chewing the leash, tugging and pulling for all he is worth and has gotten the leash all twisted, he barks excitedly at everything that we come across.
Now does Snip know where I'm doing? Of course not, yet he tries to drag me along to the path he believes is fun and he wants to go even if it means leaving the pathway.
Often times, I am exactly like Snip, FL has the leash but I am too impatient to just let Him guide my direction, I jump and skip, turning around in circles chasing my tail, I've got grand and lofty ideas that lead straight into a pit, but I am too short sighted to see it.
Snip gets himself all worked up, yet he ends up going my way, he tugs and pulls forgetting it is just a cute furry puppy. In the end I am just like Snip, a little girl, desperately in need of her FL.
I don't know the way, I can't even find it by myself even if a map is drawn for me, yet I don't want to be guided. What if I go down that path, I would get so lost, that all the search and rescue teams won't be able to do anything for me :)
So that's one lesson I am finally getting my head around.
In case you are wondering, now I am breathing.
Y'all don't forget to breathe ok.