Looking back at all the years gone by, there is always a mix of questions, laughs, some sad moments and the times you just wonder.
Some things you find closure for others you close it yourself by just closing the door and walking away, though you still wonder about those sometimes; did you make a right call or could you have tried just a little bit more.
Well get with the program, I tell myself, you'll never know it's all in the past. All you've got now is TODAY and what you chose to do with it.
If you really are sincere with yourself there is so much to be thankful for even in the place of the questions and puzzles with missing bits.You've got to be thankful you have a today to talk about, you've got your mind intact that's why you can even question yesterday, you are healthy else nothing else would matter in the light of the pain you are going through.
So for me, I'll just say:
Through the storms and the rains
Though the answers don't come
Though nothing goes as planned
I'm still thankful
Through the pains and the aches
Through the sleepless nights
Though I can't see how the story ends
I'm still so thankful
Thankful for the pain, it only made me strong
Thankful for the aches, it makes me appreciate the quiet no drama days
Thankful for the storms, it makes the sun so much more beautiful
Even for the rains cos it washes away the tears of yesterday
Who needs answers when I can smile
Why won't I just enjoy the bliss that comes with the spontaneous events
So if you've been offended by me this year
If I didn't keep in touch as much
If you just didn't like my too bright smile
Or my too quiet days
If you just couldn't understand what I'm about It is ok,
I can't promise to change those things, Yes! I am work in progress
and the One doing the work is just fine with the place I'm at and he pace I've moved at
and I am happy being me, it is the most delightful place to be
A place where I am at ease with God and me
So Yes! though It's been some year for me
I look forward eagerly to what tomorrow brings be it pain, sun or fun
I'm still thankful!