To Love

Hey, how are you all doing?
Been away for a bit. Hope y’all have fun plans for the “special” weekend?

Anyways whatever it is make sure you have fun.

Here’s a quick note for the 2 loves in my life. One Perfect the other imperfect but both more than I could ask for. Thank you FL- You are awsome

My darling Love
Loving you
It’s not something I need to deliberate on
It’s not something I need to be convinced about
I love you not just on the high days
Not just on the great days
Not only for the smooth sails
But for all trails
Loving you is simply what I do

I love you when I am excited
Even when the days are dull
When the mood is low
And when the pain won’t stop
It is a decision I have made
Not a whim I follow
I love you
This I say with all joy.

FL
Loving you is more than I could explain
Your love for me is more that I can comprehend
Even when I am not in my best behaviour Your love does not stop
It does not cease even for a moment because if ever it did I would be dead
Your love is unconditional

I want to love the way You love
Not minding my weaknesses
Or my shortcomings
Not minding my constant questions
And ever so frequent straying

I need to live my life loving You
In my words
In my deeds
In my thoughts
And my ways

May Your love consume me till Your love is made perfect in me.
To my First Love, You truly are my everything.

Tolumide says a bit about that love here. Enjoy!

My Musing

My Isaiah 53 Vs 4-6;12

But He took my suffering on Him and felt my pain for me.

I saw His suffering and thought God was punishing Him

But He was wounded for the wrong I did; He was crushed for the evil I did.

The punishment, which made me well, was given to Him

And I am healed because of His wounds.

I have wandered away like sheep; I have gone my own way.

But the LORD has put on Him the punishment for all the evil I have done

For this reason, God said HE will make Him a great man among people,

And He will share in all things with those who are strong.

He willingly gave His life and was treated like a criminal.

But He carried away my sins (and yours too even that of ML) and asked forgiveness for me when I sinned

I took the liberty to turn these words to myself and I didn’t finish off feeling I scored a point rather I saw myself not worthy of His love yet He loves me. I can’t understand it at all. Can you?

FL, how can I say thank You enough? You did all these for me yet I don’t live like I love you. Forgive me for my many shortcomings. I would be who you want me to be.

He did all these for LOVE.

He loves me!

I'm His Darlyn!!

He calls me Darling

I am His darling

He loves me inspite of myself

He cares even when I can't be bothered

He is the one constant person I go back to when I've failed again and does not say "I told you so"

Instead He listens, cries with me, then wipes my tears and tells me He still loves me

I should have understood that long ago but somehow I guess I'm still holding my breath incase he decides one day that He no longer cares

I am only trying to protect myself from the hurt of rejection

Its hurts him because he know that's my thought

I no longer want to hurt Him but some how I still do that

I am actively going to work on stopping that

I'll document what he does for me and hope talking more about it would help me see how he loves me