To Love

Hey, how are you all doing?
Been away for a bit. Hope y’all have fun plans for the “special” weekend?

Anyways whatever it is make sure you have fun.

Here’s a quick note for the 2 loves in my life. One Perfect the other imperfect but both more than I could ask for. Thank you FL- You are awsome

My darling Love
Loving you
It’s not something I need to deliberate on
It’s not something I need to be convinced about
I love you not just on the high days
Not just on the great days
Not only for the smooth sails
But for all trails
Loving you is simply what I do

I love you when I am excited
Even when the days are dull
When the mood is low
And when the pain won’t stop
It is a decision I have made
Not a whim I follow
I love you
This I say with all joy.

FL
Loving you is more than I could explain
Your love for me is more that I can comprehend
Even when I am not in my best behaviour Your love does not stop
It does not cease even for a moment because if ever it did I would be dead
Your love is unconditional

I want to love the way You love
Not minding my weaknesses
Or my shortcomings
Not minding my constant questions
And ever so frequent straying

I need to live my life loving You
In my words
In my deeds
In my thoughts
And my ways

May Your love consume me till Your love is made perfect in me.
To my First Love, You truly are my everything.

Tolumide says a bit about that love here. Enjoy!

A Psalm for My First Love

1/ I look up to the mountains- does my help come from there?
Why am I looking at the mountain? Looking/Focusing on the mountain only takes my attention off the important thing. I then get side tracked wondering how would I ever get over this mountain. It is so wide how can I walk round it, it’s so high I won’t last trying to climb it to come out on the other side. Oh how would I overcome this mountain?
That exactly is what happens when you look to the mountain – it gets more scary and u get discouraged.
2/ My help comes from the Lord, who made heavens and earth
Now this is the right perspective, this is where I should have looked first, not at the enormity of the task before me, not the impracticability of it. The longer I focus on the mountain the more I forget who I should actually the looking to.
My mind should always remember that only FL can solve any problem or bring be over the mountain and all. My FL created the heaven and the earth- now this should remind me that the mountain was created by my FL, He knew it was there before He lead me in that part- He could have made it disappeared so I don’t have to face it at all but He left it there to make me a better person, it is there to build my trust in FL. He wants to help me remember that when I encounter other mountains I should keep the right mind set- look to FL (creator) not the mountain (creature)
3/ He will not let me let you stumble; the one who watches over you will not slumber
The mountain is there and all the creeping plants around the mountain, the slippery grass is also there and the not so convenient paths to walk through as you climb the mountain- FL is saying in all these I am with you. I am not going to just stand by and watch you fall. I would keep you safe, even if it feels like you have missed a step and the law of gravity is fast winning the battle even then He is keeping you safe. Will you trust Him and let go of the rope you think is keeping you alive?
Remember- FL DOES NOT SLUMBER!!!
4/ Indeed, he who watches over Israel never slumbers or sleep
Now this is a testimony for me- Israel has experienced this protection in the past so FL knows what He is saying and if you need evidence just ask Israel he can tell you.
FL knows the way my heart works, my thinking and reasoning that I am going to ask so who has he kept before that I should trust Him so He provides the answer even before I fully form the question. Isn’t FL great? HALELUYAH!
5/ The Lord himself watches over you! The Lord stands beside you as your protective shade.
Now FL is telling you that He is interested in your welfare that He takes it upon Himself to watch over you and even create a protective shade over you so nothing can harm you. You have a covering shade ready for you to use at anytime so why go out without it. What’s the use of a bulletproof vest if you won’t use it?
6/ The sun will not harm you by day nor the moon at night
My FL is saying even forces of nature would not affect me adversely because this protective shade is interested in everything about me. The bullet proof we humans made is only to keep the bullet from penetrating into the body does not stop you from feeling the impact, does not keep you from sun burn or any such- its not built for comfort, but FL is saying I have all your needed comfort at heart s just trust me
7/ The Lord keeps you from all harm and watches over your life
Oh you say FL has said He’ll keep me, ah He does not know all the modern day danger around now all these illnesses flying around, the witches in my village, that bad people all sound me, the serial killers, thieves, rapists and all sorts of unimaginable evils everywhere but FL has said even that I have it covered. Anything that will cause you any form of harm, I will protect you from it. Awesome isn’t it?
8/ The Lord keeps watch over you as you come and go, both now and forever
What more worries do you have? FL has made all the promises above then He says the timeframe is not just later when you are perfectly grounded in Him- NOW not just when you read this promise but for all time.
All my travels He knows about them and He has undertaken to watch over me all the way- who dares touch me?
Why would I not spend the rest of my life praising this God?
Thank You First Love (FL)
Psalm 121

I'm back

I have stayed away from you for so long and I am really sorry about that. I know you are accusing me of deserting you and going to every other person. I know its true I am guilty of visiting every other person and have refused to come home. Would you please forgive me?
I have been so worried that maybe you wont like me. Maybe I would be boring, maybe I am not going to be fun enough for you but now I realize that all those are excuses you know me and love me as I am. So as awkward as this may seem I will keep it up till I am able to know you as you should be known. Ok Blog (B) I know you are wondering, “Is she still talking to me or to your First Love (FL)? Actually I started out talking to just you B but along the line I realized somewhere inside me I was also talking to FL and to you then I left you out a lil tiny bity bit at the tail end when I focused on just FL.
Readers please bear with me I have a tendency to do that but hey it makes it all more fun.

So I know you might be wondering what I have been doing all these while I’ve been away? I have been busy with work (believe me you don’t want to hear about it- you are likely to get pissed at them all as I was for most of it till I learnt to just let it go), the busy road also takes quite some of my time so by the time I am home my books take a large chunk of that time then I spend time with FL and ML
B- hehehehe yeah I got you! Who is ML-?
HD-ok I’ll let you in a lil bit or do you want to guess I know you are really smart- ok I’ll spill- that is My love- that is the darlyn guy that makes my heart go mush
B- ok ok enough details
HD – blushing ;) - you asked

Well I’m working on spending more time with FL, He’s been there for me in so many places and situations that I cant let anybody not even ML to get in the way and ML sure doesn’t want to be in the way

Well I could go on about ML now that I have started but I’ll try not to make you roll your eyes at me. But remember this whole writing is about them and I.
I’ll also like to say THANK YOU to the many bloggers that have made it “necessary” for me to finally join the blogville. If I start to list all your names hmmmm Ok I know what I will do I’ll write up a special blog about y’all.
You’ve been my silent “friends” and support through the years, Yes years been consistently reading blogs since 2006

This blog today is inspired by September- I’m sure the countdown is at its peak. Congrats girl