It's June and I have been intentional

June has been a vacation month for me, I don't think I have the words to describe how much I needed the vacation, now the vacation is almost all gone (please, please please FL(God) can June start again? I promise I will be good). So many things have just not been as expected this year and it's been a tough task coping with it all, but my darling FL has giving me loads of things to laugh about and learn and also to be excited for too through it all. I'll share those sources of laughter & fun over the next few days.

Here goes one...

So I decided early this year to live intentionally so I took on a few new activities. I have loved singing since I was much younger making song tapes with my sisters for my Mum when she was away. I was in a choir for a while growing up but I never got any cool parts to sing because I wasn't just that good. But I still love singing and hated to admit it, seeing I wasn't so good at it and somehow now that I am grown and all I've got this tiny voice that ends up with me sounding like a little child singing than a big girl :) so I keep my singing to the shower or just with immediate family and believe me they always have a good laugh.

Anyways, I joined a singing group! I wasn't quite sure it was a good idea but I was enjoying my new church so much that I decided I had to join a group. I thought to myself "well if I sound really terrible, they will be nice enough to tell me and then I would join some other group", I just wanted to be part of something larger than me and why not a singing group since I loved to sing. It was a BIG risk for me also for the fact that from my younger years experience of being in the choir, it is always a clique thing and some "I'm holier than thou" type people so I learned to stay clear of anything choir. But this group proved me wrong and I really have grown to love them so much.

I joined early this year and since then, it's been so much fun even the long rehearsals when I'll rather be sleeping, wearing make up and all the dress up sessions (never thought the day will come that I would use the word makeup and fun in the same sentence and guess what I actually own makeup and know how to apply some, wonders right?).

On some rehearsal days, I am just totally exhausted from the stress at work that I wonder if I should just call to make my excuses and not show up, but most times I go anyway and usually it always turns out to be just what the doctor prescribed. I leave the rehearsal feeling like I just had a spa session, all relaxed and ready to take on the world.

Over this few months they have come to become another family to me. The openness with which we relate, the friendships, corrections and general fun times are just lovely.

I still don't think I sing so good but I am just glad to be doing something I love and not letting the fear of not being good enough scare me from venturing to try it.

Now I need to overcome the fear of singing alone :)

Hmm who can guess where I am in that pix? TT not you (winks)