I am His darling
He loves me inspite of myself
He cares even when I can't be bothered
He is the one constant person I go back to when I've failed again and does not say "I told you so"
Instead He listens, cries with me, then wipes my tears and tells me He still loves me
I should have understood that long ago but somehow I guess I'm still holding my breath incase he decides one day that He no longer cares
I am only trying to protect myself from the hurt of rejection
Its hurts him because he know that's my thought
I no longer want to hurt Him but some how I still do that
I am actively going to work on stopping that
I'll document what he does for me and hope talking more about it would help me see how he loves me
